I am back at Trinity! aw bittersweet. it is strange to think that I am back in this life again. did I walk into an alternate universe because thing just don't look the same as when you are on campus. maybe that is a good thing. maybe it is not. I don't want Trinity to be my life but when I am here it is so easy.



my dilema:

we had communion today. I didn't take any. I think that I have a problem with taking communion outside of a church setting, or a context where there is a somewhat set group of certain people where accountablity is in place. the Bible says to "do this in rememberance of me" but Jesus was talking to a group of men who had spent the last three years living with one another. there was certainly accountablity with those men. That is why communion is now most often found in the church. and Trinity is NOT A CHURCH. it is not. it trys to be sometimes but I think that is wrong.
maybe I am overthinking this whole thing. Jesus could have been talking about whenever you eat a meal, as in daily, remember me.



second dilema:

chris said something awhile ago about reading a book about the demasculinizing of men in the church. the more I think about it the more I can see what he is talking about. where is that balance between a man who is down-right gentleman and a man who is manly. and the word is 'gentleman' but that word has lost so much. it orginally mean simply a man who owned property. but it ended up representing a class of men who were cultured and well-mannered. but then that all went to h-e-double hockey sticks. no one wants to be a 'nice guy' I mean how femmy can we let the men in our society get? and I don't think more women is what we need...certainly not what we need.
so I guess in the end I am glad I am not a guy. good luck to all the guys out there. God be with you.